A lot of people died last month. I suppose a lot of people die every month, but last month gun violence dominated my feed. At one point I was in the car with my mom and I just sobbed. “Why?” I asked. “Why is the world like this?” My mom offered answers like racism, power, fear, and greed. But I wasn’t satisfied.
My Christian friend offered the answer referencing Eve ushering sin into the world. And people not letting God into their hearts. Yet I still wasn’t satisfied.
My therapist didn’t offer any answers - only empathic comments of understanding. He accurately deduced that there would be no answer that would satisfy me. My heart was broken by this world that I call home and I would have to go to sleep heavy with questions that had no satisfying answers.